The noise of a smashed door...
A smashed door followed by a music with hard words...and again you are lost in the safety of your room.Another day in hell....a day full of "his" or "her" words.
You refuse to call them "mum" or "dad"
You just know they are NOT right!
All they do is to overreact and to come up with excuses as "it's not the right thing to do" or "what will the people say."
You deny their way of thinking and you see yourself more updated with every day life.A life that they can't put up with anymore.
The present for them is just a reminder of past memories.And that just makes it worse!
You want to live the MOMENT!
You are scared of minutes passing by with no fun,you want understanding but from where?from who?
You feel trapped in the presence of your family and you blame them for the smallest mistakes they do! The sense of perfection in you can't see any weaknesses.
You can't accept any errors in your life unless their consequence is craziness and fun!
Do you find yourself in any of this thoughts? Well....its just part of being a teenager but as well a part of our bad human nature a time when you are rebellious and you feel proud of it.
Is it really this way?
Are our parents just simple lunching platforms of some little creatures on this world?
Lets go back a while ago!
You where surprising news followed by a celebration,and you brought a smile to the ones who where about to hold you in their arms in just a few months.
Ohhh but those few months....full of the sacrifice of late hours in night and the pain of your mother...you don't remember that to often do you?
Moments of agony and pain the moments you entered this world...moments you don't think of.
Years past by and here you are today.
A today that rejects the ones who offered you warmth protection and food but most of all love!
You judge their mistakes but soon you will realize that life is just a row of mistakes.
You reject their way of thinking,but what is the importance of the way of thinking in balance with the parental love?
You demand understanding but you don't bother to understand them!
You see yourself smart and educated but you forget that because of their existence you had the chance to be what you are today!
More than the tough time of teenager hood there are people and hearts of which we often forget about.
We think at us and the moment.
But what we don't know is that the way we are today is the way our children will be in the future.
And again we will hear a smashed door followed by the same story.
Think and live! Don't live and regret!
Its raining...
My skin is wet...so were the tears that kept me awake at night of endless questions.
Alone in the rain I try to revive memories....memories that would steal a smile from the corner of my mouth.
I can hear steps in the rain and somewhere in the background the sound of a violin spits pain and love and black and blue. The rhythm is smooth...to smooth like you.
I have a childish smile.
I don't know why maybe a memory'n the rain makes me believe in smile...in you.
You stole it is true.
And now all that I have is the illusion of laugh....of smile.
And this is what I do I'm smiling false...a smile like you.
